Friday, July 6, 2012

A VERY Cluttered Mind

I haven't blogged for awhile...this entry will be very random...

Stuff on my mind...

I'm hating the fact that Penn State sent Jacob a letter saying he is not meeting their 'Satisfactory Academic Progress' standards, when we checked, and his grades are REALLY solidly high, he's on course to graduate next May, and he's been tutoring in the learning center for two years now.  I can't begin to understand why, and no one answers a darned PHONE!  We get all these dumb options, but no real people. 

I cannot stand things that I can't resolve immediately--I'm impatient.  I want answers and I want them NOW!!!!!!!

I'm thinking of things I want to do as Summer marches along at an accelerated pace--what has happened to 'time'?  It's bounding away like a wild horse with no direction, an unbridled ride full of bumps and bruises along the way.  I feel like I got knocked off the horse and am lying in a dusty trail somewhere rubbing my black and blue...ummm...well, you get the picture.  Time took off and I can't figure out how to capture it.

I have an alternate life, it's really wierd...it's the life I land in when I enter REM sleep...it continues on every night.  Maybe someday it will make a fantastic story for a book.  Its me, John, and the kids, just as normal as apple pie.  But, in that life, we have moved into a home where everyone has space.  The house is equipped with extra rooms, large windows, extra baths, modern appliances, and we are on perpetual vacation.  Every day is a new adventure, and almost always involves vivid family trips to the ocean or Lake Erie.  We ride lots of roller coasters in that other life, too.  Sometimes I return to school, and that is one of the down sides to the alternate life.  I always feel confused that I'm back there, and even have had to ask my own kids what time a certain class begins.  I tend to get confused because I'm sure I have a test but don't know what is on the test.  Sometimes I stand at my locker and wonder how to open it because no matter how much I wrack my brain, I cannot remember the lock's combination.

In that life, I often spend time on stage.  Sometimes, it resembles the school dream, where I'm on stage and realize I never memorized any of my lines.  Somehow I get myself out of every jam.  I always fix those problems, and come out on top.  The last time I was on stage in that life, I was in a chorus line, and had never attended rehearsal.  Everyone knew the dance steps but me.  I did a lot of improvising!

A psychologist would analyze that and conclude that I'm trying to problem solve in my sleep.  It might be true, but who cares?  I love visiting my 'other' life.  :)

Today is payday--gotta do bills--bathroom day--(clean that)--wash dishes--plan dinner (have no idea what to make!  I'm running out of ideas!!!)--finish laundry--(finish?  Ha!  In my dreams!)--and think of something fun to do with my honey and my 'little' honeys tonight.  (The little honeys who aren't out with their friends or working.)

Thinking of Tony, who starts his new job tomorrow!  He got hired at WalMart!  He'll be making pretty good money, and will be a WORKING MAN!!!  Yeah, Anthony!!!

Last but not least--thinking I should have done my exercises earlier, it's really getting hot and I haven't done them yet.  Better get to it before the weather gets worse!

XXX000 Annie




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